can't you tell

[mariah gomez]

and she‘s wearing

Mariah didn‘t really have anything to do lately. She had a lot on her mind but nothing to do. Riska had been having a party so she had decided to leave before anyone came. Looking around she walked over and sat on a bench. Everywhere Riah had looked she saw a little kid playing and that was just a reminder of what she had done. She couldn't stand not telling anyone. Every time she went some where she thought she thought she would explode just because she hadn't told anyone.

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[chessy frederickson]

Chessy let out a small breath, as she walked into the park with Timmy laying against her chest and shoulder. She’d left the party just briefly enough to calm Timmy down, and she figured the park would be the best place to do it, since there wasn’t any music to disturb him. As she neared a bench, she saw the familiar face of one of her best friend’s younger sister. She sat next to her, and stayed quiet for a few seconds, running her hand over Timmy’s back lightly. “Mariah? Everything okay?” she asked.

Chessy’s outfit
Timmy’s outfit

[mariah gomez]

Looking at Chessy she smiled. "Hi," then she asked her something that made her feel a bit sad,"Sort of. Well no everything is not okay."Looking down she realized she probably should have said everything was okay."But I can't tell you why. Riska would kill me."

[chessy frederickson]

"I'm not Riska, Honey; I'm Chessy. I'm not gonna tell her anything... What's the matter?" Chessy asked.

[mariah gomez]

"Promise you won't tell her anything?"

[chessy frederickson]

"I promise," she said. "What's going on?"

[mariah gomez]

"You know Garret right?" How was she supposed to tell her? Then a tear slid down her cheek. "Well I well I slept with him. I feel soo bad and I just can't stop thinking about it." She finally said it. Mariah finally said something about what she had done.

[chessy frederickson]

Chessy looked at Mariah for a few seconds, not believing what she'd just heard. "...Honey, you're thirteen years old... You shouldn't even be thinking about sex, let alone having it," she said, running her hand over Mariah's back. "What made you decide to sleep with him?"

[mariah gomez]

"I know...." What was she supposed to say."It just sort of happened I guess. I don't know what I am going to do I feel so bad now. And I don't know how I am going to tell Riska.."

[chessy frederickson]

"Did you at least use protection? A diaphram, contraceptives, a condom?" she asked. She knew what happened when protection wasn't used.

[mariah gomez]

"No, atleast I don't think we did." She did know what would happen if she didn't use a condom. And that's was what worried her the most if she had got pregnant at thirteen.

[chessy frederickson]

"Mariah, what happens if you end up pregnant? You're thirteen; you still have three years left of school, and you have college. Babies are cute and cuddly, but they're also a lot of hard work. I mean, look at Timmy," she said, gesturing towards the one-month-old that was asleep on her shoulder.

[mariah gomez]

"I know. I can't handle a baby at thirteen." Mariah said then crying. What if she was pregnant? Would her sister leave her and stop being her friend? "I know I am so stupid."

[chessy frederickson]

"You're not stupid; you just made a mistake... We all make mistakes. I just found out that I made my second mistake, so don't worry; everything's gonna be okay. I'll be right here beside you," she said.

[mariah gomez]

"Thanks. Do you think I should tell Riska, Chessy?" Atleast Mariah knew she had someone who would be there for her.